I'm Rachel. I'm 12 and my life sucks. I have a feeling it would be so much better if I was skinnier, I need to get an eating disorder. Problem is, I have no idea how to. I could really use all of your's helps.
- I'm only 4'11, which is short for a 6th grader, so even though I have a low weight, I am completely stout.
- I'm ugly, so I might as well be skinny to make up for it
- I can never make myself throw up or restrain myself from eating. I'm a pig.
- Let me go weigh myself...
I'm 92 and blubbery. But at this rate, I'll probably 180 within a year.
I need tips...
I know you don't want to hear this, but honestly, you should not make yourself throw up or restrain yourself from eating. I mean, make healthy choices, don't eat a gallon of ice cream at one time :-) but don't try not to eat at all. Please. It can really mess you up for life and you've got your whole life ahead of you. You are in a magical time for young girls. If you can develop good habits of eating, smiling when you look in the mirror (even if you don't want to), and getting lots of exercise, you'll be setting a great foundation for success in life. I know you can do it. Please write more and let me know if you have any questions ok?
ReplyDeletelove, jenn
So I know that you don't want to hear any of this, but you're wayyy too young for this craziness. An eating disorder will not boost your self-esteem, make you feel prettier, or help you make friends. You're at a rough age where everything is awkward but if you're having trouble dealing with your life, your body, friends, and whatever else, there are ways that you can get help and make things better for yourself. Talk to your parents if you can or to someone that you trust if that person is not your parents. Puking and starving will not get you to any place of happiness. TRUST ME. Plus, I'll bet you don't know that the age where you start an ED, is the age where you get mentally stuck until you recover. So if you hate being 12, get used to it because you'll still be acting and feeling like a 12 year old 4 years down the line when all your friends are driving and doing fun things. Or 6 years down the line when everyone is looking forward to going to college and living in the dorms. It's frightening and saddening that you're so young, yet looking to do such damage to your life.
ReplyDeleteI need to clarify something, I phrased it very badly here. I have something almost like an eating disorder, but I need to make it work more instead of gaining it. My goal is to be pretty and skinny, not sick.
ReplyDeleteSo thank you for your words of advice, they're smart. The problem is, that this extreme dieting has latched onto me and I don't feel as though I can just shake it away. Not to be rude, but it's like me telling you (or anyone) just to get rid of their ED. I honestly don't know whether or not it's a real ED yet, but it sure as heck feels like one, and I can't just stop. It makes me feel, for lack of a better word...complete.
ReplyDeleteok well.. if you have an ED then it's there, but I just hope you're not trying to catch one. For your own sake. Either way, I encourage you to try to nip in the bud sooner than later. What's your home situation?
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